I started to write a blog post about my experience in Czech...
...that was 10 days ago.
I am struggling with the same thing as Rach D here, to write a blog post about Czech means that it's over and I'm not really overjoyed with that truth. Not right now, not yet. But I will be.
So until then I will write about my uncertainty.
This year is my final year of university. That means two sets of finals, 4 assignments and 1 dissertation.
That's a lot of work to squeeze into a few months.
My fear is not getting the balance right. That one of these areas of my life will suffer because of the other. I want each and every part to glorify God.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that I'm not adequate enough to take on this challenge.
But I know that I must believe in my heart that I do not face this challenge alone.
I would just adore for God to tell me, I'd just like to have a clue.
I guess He wants to teach me patience because patience produces perseverance and perseverance, character.
I just don't want to waste anytime, ya know?
Life is like a vapour, gone in a second.
I want each of my seconds to count for Him.
I am uncertain about how He will use my seconds, and I'm trying to be ok with that.
What I do know though, is that sometime in the future I will be able to write a blog post about where He has lead me and what He is doing through me.
I just have to wait.
There is a time for everything...
...that was 10 days ago.
I am struggling with the same thing as Rach D here, to write a blog post about Czech means that it's over and I'm not really overjoyed with that truth. Not right now, not yet. But I will be.
So until then I will write about my uncertainty.
This year is my final year of university. That means two sets of finals, 4 assignments and 1 dissertation.
That's a lot of work to squeeze into a few months.
On top of this work I will have a job and continuing with the youth ministry I'm a part of.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that I'm not adequate enough to take on this challenge.
But I know that I must believe in my heart that I do not face this challenge alone.
My God is a God who wants to be close to me, who cheers me on, who is slow to anger and abounding in love. Who doesn't judge my bad spelling, incorrect grammar or incorrect phrasing or incorrect theology (I beat there are times when He just has to laugh at us!)
Above all this I know I even more scared about the future. I mean once my final year is complete, I have no plans.
All I know is that I want to do something incredible; I want to continue to be a part of something that is bigger than myself. I want to be a part of God's mission as it unravels in the world.
I would just adore for God to tell me, I'd just like to have a clue.
I guess He wants to teach me patience because patience produces perseverance and perseverance, character.
I just don't want to waste anytime, ya know?
Life is like a vapour, gone in a second.
I want each of my seconds to count for Him.
I am uncertain about how He will use my seconds, and I'm trying to be ok with that.
What I do know though, is that sometime in the future I will be able to write a blog post about where He has lead me and what He is doing through me.
I just have to wait.
There is a time for everything...
And in the waiting I'm praying that I will worship.
